unwanteddlo-ve

2009-11-18T04:14:00.000-08:00

blog on 18november , 08.14pm

hey people , i'm back to my blog le .
so shiok , later no work .
but also quite bored .
maybe i quiting soon cos damn stress lo the boss -.-
and everytime must drink de
so quit better lo .

I love xiaoM ^^

2009-11-14T17:32:00.000-08:00

@ 09.32am , 15 november 09

now at chamber .
drank alot last week while working .

court on 25 november D:

To : Jy

i really wish ,

how i wish ,

really really wish ,

you are my boyf

but i know is impossble

iloveyou;imissyou;ineedyou

boy , reply my msg can ? D:

2009-11-07T00:40:00.000-08:00

update @ 7 november 09 , 04.47pm

hello people !

people , i moving to tpy this coming tuesday .
later i working at boat quay , do come and support me yea ?
last week halloween night went powerhouse
but i did not even enjoy it seriously
it really very very sad .
i didn't mean to make you angry
i know you still angry that why last night you did not even
bother to reply me at all
now my handphone had spolit le .
i really sorry , my dear boy
i did not treat you as replacement really
it really really very sad .
it the 1st time .
really hope you not angry anymore really.
hais

2009-10-27T12:20:00.000-07:00

people !
i'm back to my bloggggggg !
i wan quit smoking because of something !
just back from singapore flyer,
its fun okays .
next year i wan take private N & O !
i need to be a good girl that got study & never smoke :D

2009-10-25T07:08:00.000-07:00

it been long since i last blogged ??
LOL
this coming Tuesday going out wif someone
hahas so excited
hope that someone spike his hair ?
its nice kays
hahas
anyway i now single ~
and to those ppl tag at my blog ?
lame ?
hack care & i wont delete tagg lyk how i tag kath and she deleted -.-

2009-06-16T07:27:00.000-07:00

date : 16 June 09
Time : 10.28PM

it been so long since i last posted ;D
due to everyday outside so dun get a chance to post
and i'm lazy to post ;D
this coming thursday pub again ;D
anybody interested to join us ?
and boyf is at thailand now
hope he will be alright ;D
&ilovehim

2009-05-31T09:06:00.000-07:00

date : 01 june 09
time : 12.16am

okkays now i at kat hse
so boring so decide to blog since so long nv blog le
ytd just went pub and i drunk xD
so looking forward for every sat
cos i wanna drink drank drunk
how i wish i can drunk in my life
so that i will not confuse abt love

2009-05-16T00:07:00.000-07:00

date: 16 may 09
time: 03.17PM

whywhywhy ?????????????
why u become lyk tis le ?
so sad sia see u lyk tis
haiis
nevermind ltr going pub again

2009-05-12T10:45:00.000-07:00

date :13may 09
time: 1.54Am

long time no post le
as i quite busy going out
enjoying my night life to pub
but now exam week
haiis

2009-04-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

Date : 26 April 09
Time : 01.43Am

now at my friend hse xDD
i think i just had to let go no matter wad .
i wan start a refresh .
i wan change my life .
byes guy

TAG REPLIED:

♥AKU-NiMaMa: btw , Silver's here
♥AKU-NiMaMa: XueLing ! Link Me ! {L}
Replied: LINK (L)

Liying.C: Taggged, Because i've nothing to do. <3
REPLIED

school suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

2009-04-22T17:35:00.000-07:00

Date : 23April 09
Time : 08.36Am

i never go school -.-
dunno how many days never go school le
cos of the stupid muthu keep pin point on me
everytime i got go school sure go whiteroom
so might as well dun go school ...
nvm forget it
i now at krislan
sianz sianz sianz ..
imisshim):
iwanhim

Everything gone .

2009-04-15T12:12:00.000-07:00

Hey people out there.
Pls take note my laptop spoilt so will nt be update so often.
Anything msg me

I still miss you
I miss ur voice
I miss those tym with you and me
I miss ur everything
But there nth i can do rite nw
Everything gone
Hope you are happy .
Last long

I wan you :(

2009-04-11T13:59:00.000-07:00

date: 12April 09
time: 5am

heard from alot ppl saying that he got stead ?
izzit the true ?
haiis
i just know tis few days i damn sad uh ...
i was like trap in a sea with nobody help expect for him
and the james in my tagbox
i ugly or wad need u care so much
pls judge urself before saying others
THANKS

i wana be wif you
i wanna love you
i'm missing you everyday
but it seem like nobody cares
cos your heart only got her
heartbroken

REPLIED:

yingjie: i m the passerby who say halo
passer-by: halo
Passerby-James: Ehh!!!! Don't so bad can ?
REPLIED: thanksxD

james: you're so ugly. what makes you think anyone would ever want you?
REPLIED: ur problem & pls judge b4 saying others

BrendaC.: tagg back ass. Never update again ah. ass
REPLIED: ASS update le

XIAOBUDIAN- [♥]: JIHONG !!!! hehe*
REPLIED: reply to ur blog

♥; LEANNEszxc, <3: everthinqq is okay already ?
don't want see you sadd again , or else i will too . lovelove
REPLIED: to ur blog

Tricia Merin: Hello, tagged. Both of us by the way. (: Take care. We had quit, so hope you will too. (:
REPLIED: Oo thanks and i will quit soon xDD

BrendaC.: *ass
BrendaC.: Update leh asshole!!!!!!! You're as an ass.......
REPLIED

huiying: haha sure.
REPLIED: xDD

Passerby: nvm nvm. don't have to know who i am =)
REPLIED: Oo

♠ J I N G Y I: Tagged too ! (x
REPLIED: Oo

Passerby: Anyway , you're pretty =) stay sweet !
REPLIED: thanks xDD

Liying.C: Stupid! Tagged ! <3>

REPLIED: reply to ur blog le

let this be the last romance , will you ?

2009-04-05T13:11:00.000-07:00

Date: 6April 09
Time: 4.11AM

asshole now house hahahahahas xDDDDDDDDD
LOLS !!
still left a few hours to school ..
nvm i will go school from now on ,
i really miss the day that PWL
will angry me for not going school Dx
everything changed =(
he not going to read my blog anymore
he not going to msg me every morning when he woke up
he not going care anymore
he hate me alot =(
i wan the past , i miss the past i wan it back .
but i know it impossible but
nvm let the miracle happen =(
i really wish i can be wif him
i really wish
i swear i will cherish him alots
cos i love him alots
nothing gonna change my love

TAG replied:

Passerby: Nice blog =) you're pretty too! hehes ! Quit smoking the best ^^
Replied: thank xD anyway you are ?

BrendaC.: taggggggggg assssssssss
BrendaC.: tagggggggggg!
BrendaC.: hAha(: Your link only for B me only.
BrendaC.: *):
BrendaC.: Never link me sia. (:
Replied: replied to ur blog le xD

XIAOBUDIAN-: LOL~ nothing to do izzit? zz. go play your PS lah. PS Nood ;X
REPLIED: replied to ur blog .

.MinEr♥: xueling (: link me ok :d
Replied: link le xDD

忠心♥ x`KUNKUN [; ,: hellOs((: JIEJIE <3>
Replied: HELOOS xDD

LEANNE.♥: peek-a-boo :]
tagged w/loves (!)
t'cares & update
Replied: update le xDD

huimin: hii...xueling...tag~tag~
Replied: hello xDD

FIONA(:: you really jia bah bo sai bang write this kind of story
Replied: hahas xDD mit up soon! <3

huiying: Lol, nice story man !
huiying: LOVE YOU <3
Replied: thanks , long time no see you le mit up soon <33

sharon: taggggg !
sharon: xue ling !
Replied: xDD

cheryl ♥: Hellos :D link meee :D
Replied: LINKED xDD

2009-04-04T03:14:00.000-07:00

Date : 4 april 09
Time : 6.15PM

story shall end here,
as i lazy to type
& i dun wish to repeat the history again .

2009-03-26T13:00:00.000-07:00

DATE:27 Macrh 09
Time:4.25AM

Long long time ago , there was a girl
who used to believe that everything
will be perfect in life ,
until one night during oct holidays ,
the girl was as usual training her audition
while leaving her msn on ,
suddenly her audition suddenly disconnect
due to she is using wireless internet
and so she go check her msn
& realize got one guy added her in msn .
so the girl was so curious about this guy is who
& she started the conversation
on asking who he .
and he did reply and claimed that he is the same school with her and is secondary 3 & retain 2 time,
so they start to chat on msn everynight
and one night they two will chatting happliy
just nice the guy said he everytime going lan shop
and just nice the next day
the girl was suppose to meet her friend to go lan shop
in the morning.
and the guy was actually wanting to meet her in lan shop
in the morning and the girl said ok without letting her friend know
so the next day the girl woke up and prepare everything
and so she went to her friend house and wait for her
she had already forgot her meeting with the guy ,
and so they still went to lan shop and when she
reach was about to wrote her name that time
she saw the guy name and so she went around looking
but sad to said she saw nowhere the guy .
and so she don't really care at all .
the next day she went to 400plus dere
to meet her friends
and is around 5 plus
as usual she was slacking at dere de east park
after alwhile the guy appear in east park
and she was shocked and suddenly very scared
and so she went cycle wif her friends
after that the guy was still at dere talking with friends
so she sat down on one corner chatting with her friends
after 7plus they guy actually got problems so he went down funland.

& story to be continued =)
this the story about how i know my first boyfriend and how
we actually stead and break =)
so stay tune & comment will be greatly appreciated =)

2009-03-25T05:54:00.000-07:00

Date: 25 MARCH 09
Time: 08.55PM

everything changed le
guess u will hate me ton loads bahhs
nvm den
wo ren shu le
i'm tired of everything
how i wish i can just vanish in this earth
seriously i guess u wont be looking at my blog anymore
no matter how i explain to you
guess u wont believe me anymore
nvm =(((
in tis i really lost quite alot of friends le and also quite alot taiji on me ..
guess mia is the best for me ?
but i really miss him
hope he will talk to me soon
i really very sad of everything
& everything just blame on me bahhs

2009-03-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

DATE: 22 march 09
Time: 11.32PM

I HATE YOU TWO

the hate in my heart will always be dere
nothing can change everything !
NOTHING
NOTHING
guess i stop here.
really really no mood now

2009-03-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

Date: 19March 09
Time: 9.50PM

everything settle finish just now
at 151
hope nothing will happened again anymore
hahas i now at home tis few day stay at flona hse mahjong =D
now waiting for my mother buy food for me to eat
den jiu go funland le
so nothing to do jiu post abit
so many words had appeared in my mind
& i shall just keep myself
without letting anybody know
and i love you

TAG replied :

huiying: take care la. you cough till so jialat
Replied: hahas okok i will de u also takecare (:

T.Han: yo! relink. thank you
Replied: Relinked le

Elfin-Xueling: paiseh 4get write
Elfin-Xueling: tagged.Link me ahhs or not don fren you.... :P
Replied: LOL u never link me ><>

Brenda: zzz! That day fun mah! Here my tag don't say ii boxim
Replied: Hahas ya lo

FIONA: TAG TAG TAG !
FIONA: STUPIDD !
Replied: zzzzzzzz

huiying: hahahaha! Tmddd

Replied: LOLS

2009-03-09T07:50:00.000-07:00

Date: 9march 09
Time: 10.51PM

seriously i dunno wad i am thinking now D:
everything is not going smoothly
nevermiind i shall stop here as i now haviing fever

TAG REPLIED:
kathie: tag:)
REPLIED: (:

Brenda: Orh horx you never update. You never update i don't want tagg you le ah
REPLIED: i updated le laas

huiying: you crap laaa pubor! LOL. Puzzle fighter!!
REPLIED: lols puzzle fighter fun fun !

Brenda: Here my tag for you! Sorry can't tag you everyday le cause ii now staying at ny house. Meet up soon.<3
REPLIED: Oo

2009-03-05T09:53:00.000-08:00

DATE : 6 MARCH 09
TIME : 1.54AM

Oh Oh Ohs ?!
wad a nice tag i had in my tagbox ?!
nice jobs spammers !
i LOVE you so so so much laas
do spam for all you wan kays ?!
=D
from now i will think for myself & of course my sister =D
and i also must had the mood to study =D

i will only reply tag to whom i know =)

huiying: HIHI
REPLIED: HELLOHELLO! lols

Liying: Eh eh girl, Why you so despo ? You wanted a bf so much ar? You love until sot le ar? Aiyoyo.
REPLIED: reply to ur blog le =D

FIONA(:: baobeix mei , takecare yahh ? must go school often hor !
FIONA(:: passerbye who you ? why spamming my mei's blog ?
REPLIED: reply to ur blog le

huiying: don't just want a boyfriend for the sake of it yea. loves
REPLIED: hahas i proud of myself being single =) lol LOVE <33

2009-03-04T07:21:00.000-08:00

Date: 4 march 09
Time: 11.22PM

mood isn't rite now =(
perhaps i should just ton outside alone tonitez
wif just a pack of cigg
and only cigg den can help me from getting stress..
i dunno why i am getting sad everyday =(
disapointment is wad i always get ..i dunno why ..
how i wish i can end my life
but ...
nvm i going out now le

2009-03-02T08:49:00.000-08:00

Date: 03 march 09
Time: 12.51AM

today so so so many thing happen in one shocks
and i tired of everything le
so sad
wad a good ending i hab ?
everything hab change !
sister ain't forever
to amanda : u really change alot lo first time i saw u also not tat xialan but now ? haiis nvm ..
i wan a boyfriend !

TAG REPLIED:

Liying: Xueling ! Tagged ! Misses loads.
REPLIED: reply to ur blog le =D

Leanne: mind linking mi up? :]
REPLIED: will link u up soon =D

passerbye: you are such a pretty girl i EVER seen {:
pb: you fxuking pretty. ^^
REPLIED: who the fuck are u ? & pls tag wif name (:

Leanne: hihi(:
i'm th girl wore lil'miss.naughty ;]
w amanda de!
REPLIED: i know,

2009-02-28T15:23:00.000-08:00

DATE : 1 march 09
Time : 07.23Am

now at krislan play audition
so byebye =D

TAG REPLIED:
Blacky: msg me 91067993
Blacky: hey mind make fren ?
REPLIED: who are u -.-?

guolong: i love u
REPLIED: i know u ? =.=

Brenda: Sorry can't tag you almost everyday le cause ii never stay kelly's house alr but still will tag you when ii use the com eh. Wuxim right?! CHEER UP!
REPLIED: den u now stay whr ??

huiying: hello!
REPLIED: HELLO =D

2009-02-27T09:07:00.000-08:00

DATE: 27 FEB 09
TIME : 11.43PM

today kenna 4th HSA again =(
tis tiime is go court =(
haiis think i will go girl home le bahhs =(
i just failure in everything le
i really left with nothing
and even him =((((((

*cried*

2009-02-26T10:55:00.000-08:00

DATE : 27Jan 09
TIME : 2.56AM

it seem lyk day by day we drift alot le..
day by day u dun seem to even bother to msg me anymore le
day by day ur attitude to me is changed
wad happened ???
just now cry again =((
i hate tis life =((
should i move on wif my life without thinking u ?
should i ??
idk =(
i just feeling very sad very sad !
u know ? guess u dunno bahhs
i think u never see my blog again =(
haiis ...
is dere someone willing lend me a shoulder for me ?
i just wan a 24 hours friend who is dere to listen to me ..
hais
forever i will never get it =(

2009-02-25T08:04:00.000-08:00

DATE : 26 FEB 09
TIME : 12.05AM

i feel i just failure =(
today whole day he never msg me & i never msg him
it seem tat he does not wan to contact me anymore ...
from morning until now i still waiting for his msg
but he did not msg me =(
haiis
all i can do is wait for him & keep give myself a false hopes=(
no mood in everything le ...

tag REPLIED

Wen Ling: Relinked
REPLIED: kkays

♠ J I N G Y I: anyway,Linked too (x
♠ J I N G Y I: Haha, same same uh. Tmr got come ?
REPLIED : lols ...i never go sch but tmr will go sch ^^

Brenda: *bodoh
Brenda: Lol. I more wuxim eh. My birhday is 24 you bod should write advance mah
REPLIED: ya la 24 mahhs bodohs !

2009-02-23T09:10:00.000-08:00

DATE: 24FEB
TIME: 1.12AM

TanXueLing LOVE PehWeeLeong !!!!

nothing can really describle how much i miss you !
i wan you
i wan you
i wan yooooooooooooooou!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRENDA CHEN !!!!!!!

Brenda: you barbie never update
Brenda: okay! I want that keychain sia so nice!
REPLY: lol i update le see i wuxim hor !

FIONA: bodoh .
FIONAi: fck you la xueling , you won't go girls home de laa . you write until like you really going in ,
REPLY: aiya dunno laas lols

♥ ` AHH {JIA}: HERE'S UUR TAG^^
REPLY: THANKS ^^

2009-02-20T09:42:00.000-08:00

DATE: 21FEB 09
TIME: 1.42AM

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I wait here forever just to see you smile
cause it's true
I am nothing without you
Through it all
I made my mistakes
I'll stumble and fall
but I mean these words
I want you to know
with everything I won't let this go

Looking back at our messenges and convesation whenever i missed you . All those moments that never lasted. Listened to the songs of memories, tears flowing down my cheek. I tried every means to be happy and strong but my emotionals show it all. I really wanna be happy till the end.
but you are everythings i needed.
I have nothing but you, now my heart is ach-ing because it's empty without you

I know i have to stop loving you but i cant stop my heart from it,
i know i have to giveup on you but i still holding onto impossible,
i know i have to stop missing you but you seem appeared in my mind often,
i know i have to let go of everythings but my sense stop me to,
i know i have to forget our memories but it's the only one that can make me smiling
i know i have to forget your name PWL but it's already craved in my heart which marked eternity
& lastly i really miss you damn loads.

If choosing you was a mistake then i willing to take the pain

2009-02-20T05:51:00.000-08:00

DATE: 20 FEB 09
Time: 09.52PM

to:PWL
if one day i suddenly mia or wad
dun ever contact anymore can ?
cos this time my mother is serious abt
sending me to girl home le
she just now called it and ask for it..
i dunno wad i can do next ..
maybe i will go girl home ?
aiya i dunno =(
althought i said i dun wan go girl home cos got reason
the reason is i really wish u can give me one chance
before i going in
den i really will not regret going in ..
but somehow i think is impossible le
but still i will waiit for u until the day u said " i love you "
if i really go in ,
i dunno whether u will sad anot ,
but i dun think u will not sad bahhs
or maybe after i go in 2months plus
u will totally forget me bahhs..
but still i dun wan go in
but now my mother is serious abt it le
& really hope i can be wif you =)
takecare if i really go in =)

tag replied :

Brenda: Of cause i'm so wuxim. Already say plus i'm tiongxim kay! You seem so mad and crazy woman today!!
REPLIED:=) hahas kays laas.u very tiongxim ok ? lols

sharon: xue ling tag tag
REPLIED:LOLS

FIONA: humph !
FIONA: caling who stupid
REPLIED:LOLS

2009-02-19T09:44:00.000-08:00

time:1.47AM
date:20 Feb 09

quarrel wif my mother again -.-
nevermind ,
threaten said wan send me girl home ...
aiya u wan send me den send lo
anyway i alrdy very tired of everything le
it seem lyk dere really nothing i can do now le ..
seriously i wan mit him up
but
i dun hab to courage to ask him to meet me le =(
dunno why haiis...
everything is just so fuck up...

TAG REPLY:

Brenda: Asshole! Do't cry for guy again! aiyo!!!!
replied:aiyo i dunno wad to say ...seem lyk u very wuxim everyday tag me lol..

♥jiayin: okays.relinked.
replied: =D

kk: =(.. Haiss..
replied:dun haiss lehhs =(((((((((

2009-02-18T04:23:00.000-08:00

date: 18 feb 09
time: 08.23PM

school today was boring ,,
after sch mit brenda and amanda
amanda and his stead go amk ..
den me and brenda jiu go 121 ..
after tat flona & andy ling came ...
den pei them go eat
den cabbed to northpoint while brenda go home
den we go find cheryl they all
after tat go slack ..
den break down wif tears agn :(
haiis
i dun wan forget you !!!!!!!!
i rather i be the one xinku
as loving you make my life happiness ..

2009-02-17T12:21:00.000-08:00

date: 18 feb 09
time: 04.21 AM

ltr going sch =)
hais
i just cant slp so come here blog <3>
wonder wad he doing now ?
dota bahhs =)
it been days , seem we last mit =(
hope can mit him up soon just lyk
how we used to mit up and chat till morning
i really miss those nite wif you =(
it been one months 10 days tat i had loved you =(
just tat u dunno the first time we mit up
i alrdy had a special feeling on you le
but i just wan to lie to myself tat i dun love
as i tired of loving someone le
but it seem tat my heart keep wan me to love you =(
i only can secretly love you & miss you le
nothing can really describle
how much i love you
<33
1 months & 10days counting ,,
the day i started to love you =(

tag replied :

Liying }.♥: Relink you le, Aiyo, Don't feel miserable. Maybe it's a good thing? It's not worthy man. Cheer up girl. <3>
LING: kkays thanks =) haiis i dunno ..wonder why i just a loser to relationship .

T.H.J.N: Happy Valentines day . Don't so jidong x_x so scary you know...
LING: you too =) i whhr got so jidong -.-

AMANDAA❤: jiejie!! dunchh emo laaahs)):
LING: hais so sad =( lalas mit up !!!!!!!

Brenda: cheer up leh =)
LING: kayys =) and thank for th tag !

2009-02-16T06:55:00.000-08:00

date: 16 feb 09
time: 10.58pm

another sad day to me :(
since lyk everyday to me is sad
no longer happy day le :(
hais
saw him today
and my stupid itchy hand just wan to msg him =(
haiis haiis haiis
nowadays dun even wish to go sch le
and since lyk i everyday buy a packet of cigg
everyday smoke alot sial =(
jialat
i wonder how long i can take it
i wan him
i wan him
i wan him =(

2009-02-15T00:26:00.000-08:00

so sad ..
haiis
why why why ?
why i everyday just cant stop cry de
fuck fuck fuck
i hate it ..
but wad the point ?
i cry because i still wan you but yet you dun wan me =(
tis few day smoke alot lyk nobody business and
dun really have the mood to study =(
monday dunno whether wann go sch anot ..
hais everything had changed
=((((((((((((((((((((((
i just wan you to be dere for me
& i really wan to be wif you =(
no matter how much pain i had to go through
i still willing to wait for you =(

2009-02-13T23:24:00.000-08:00

HATE ME FOR ALL YOU WAN !
nobody can understanding me well
nobody
nobody
i just wan you to hate me
den maybe i will forget you ?
i now trying to forget you
as wad u wan me do now
=(((((((
i really very saddddddddd

i still love you so much

i really cant forget you

nothing can describe how much i miss you

no matter wad

i still will be dere for you

maybe never contact for a long time

maybe will lead you to forget me ?

den you will happy happy de

and not sad sad

is all i cause de

all my fault

i hate myself

2009-02-13T16:44:00.000-08:00

fuck fuck fuck
i nt in the good mood now so better dun irritate me
or ...
nvm den
u wan go find ur ex den said laas..
nbcb
i care so much for wad the fuck ?
from now on
i die or pum gum or wad also not ur problem understand
i quit sch or wad is not ur taiji
if u are not happy wif my post den cum laas
ccb laas

2009-02-13T02:06:00.000-08:00

changed link
getting sick of tat link le sound so wtf -.-

i love you
i miss you
i need you !
nothing gonna change my love for you
words alone will never be able
to express the depth of my love for you
& i wan you !

2009-02-12T02:29:00.000-08:00

so sadddddddddddddddddddddd
=((((((((((
he dun wan contact anymore le =((((((((((((((
haiis
i think my miserable life start again =(((((((((((
and i hate laas =(((((((((((((

2009-02-10T19:43:00.000-08:00

sianz stay at home for 2days le
and never smoke for 2 days le =D
omg miracle lo -.-
nvm tmr school =DD
i must have the mood to study =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
4more days ; i still single =DDDDDD

2009-02-09T17:15:00.000-08:00

i so bored sia ...
i miss him loads =(
long long time nv mit him le =(
so sad ...
5 more day valentine day .
& i still single =(

2009-02-09T01:56:00.000-08:00

it 1.46am now
&& i still cant slp dunno why =(
i miss him alot alots
we nv msg so much le as his msg bomb =(
haiis ..
i dunno even know wad he doing now ..
wad a failure am i ?
birthday over le ..
but dunno whether birthday wishes will fulfill anot ?
haiis
i wan him so badly yet i just a failure dun even know whr he is now =(
hope he reach home online msn but maybe he block me ?
or dun even wan contact me anymore ?
haiis
am i thinking too much ?
maybe i just too sensitive le =(
i hate myself why i cant have you ;[

Perhaps one day , you'll see my love .

But , May I know how long more must I wait ?

1 day ? 1 month ? 1 year ?

Am I be able to hold on for so long ?

idk=[

2009-02-07T01:28:00.000-08:00

SADDDDDDDDDDDD

i really realy really tired le =(
sick of love;
sick of family;
sick of friends;
sick of waiting for ur msg;
sick of everything laas
so sadddddddddddd laas =(
why why why ??????
ihatemyself laas =(((((((((((((((((((((
i just wan you is tat so difficult ?
hais

2009-02-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

haiis
is not tat i dun wan forget you,
is just tat is really hard
you made me fall for you so deep ..
but i just keep waiting & waiting ..
even though i know is impossible to be wif you
but haiis =((
xueling ahs xueling ..
you are a strong girl rite ?
you used to it anyway ?
..
haiis i must use to anyway
as tis is the always tat happen in my life ..
no love for me =(
i just wan him so badly
my birthday present i only wan him =(
but why ????

i am sure 99.9% he will not lyk me;

but its the 0.01% tat keep me going.

2009-01-28T09:14:00.000-08:00

OMG
long time never update my blog =(

ok fine as you can see i never go sch

as the time is stated 8.41am..

25january09

wake up at 11plus i think

den wenzhen msg me

after tat go prepare all tis

den jiu go down funland find wenzhen

at dere play rockfever again=)

after tat go smoke all tis den go foodcourt eat =x

&& whole day was msging ♥♥

so damn happy la kay ?=)

den den go back funland agn -.-

after tat go 2tou tot can mit angelia de

but but she was preparing so long -.-

nvm then we ask her nxt wk den mit then

after wenzhen go home i also go home

as it is chinese new year eve so must early go home

preparing for the reunion dinner..

(**skip)

after the reunion dinner ,,

i go down zibin -.-

but actually is go down buy beer was feeling down =((

dunno why haiis..

buy 3cans =)

den drink finish go home

&& i was still msging ♥♥

after tat ♥♥ ask me call him den i call him <33

den i mit him at 259 dere slack =))

lol & we only mit for 30min=))

den he send me home .

althought we mit only 30min but i also very happy le

den call ♥♥ chat on the phone agn =))

around 1plus i think ♥♥ go slp le cos he was very tired
den i ard 4am plus den slp -.-

26January09

was woken up by ♥♥ msg ard 12plus

lol and my auntie was lyk asking me wake up

but but i lazy =x

due to ytd so late den slp...

so go bath all tis den go amk visiting relative

agn msg ♥♥ for the whole day agn <33

den at my relative dere gamble & i lost $8 lol...

den ard 6plus jiu went home le..

but i 9plus jiu go mac slack wait for kat to mit me

to kup cigg

den she came ..den we go buy cigg awhile den jinlian also came

at mac saw liying too ^^

after tat they go off le i jiu go my hse dere de staircase slack

den ♥♥ came me agn <33

he was wearing a formal today & he said he st tym wear de..

lol so cute lo him <3

after tat he send me home =))

den we chat on the phone agn
chat until he go slp den i go slp ..

27January09

wake up ard 12plus

den go bath all tis ..

after mit jinlian at mac ..

den go funland play rockfever again<33

den amanda came =)

den go timezone play ddr ...

hell lo all so pro -.-

den suddenly dunno why miss ♥♥ so much

as he today never msg me )=
haiis ...

den flona came mit us

den go buy cigg

while amanda & i went to the japaness foodcourt eat ..

den go long john as jinlian and flona wan go eat so we pei them go ..

den go back funland play rockfever agn..

den jiu go 208 smoke while amanda went home & wen we out tat time

saw ♥♥ & i was lyk very shy =xx

den after smoke go funland agn tis time play cs..

after tat send flona home

while me & jinlian go buy beer drink

tis time buy 3cans

& i was lyk damm fucking seh and my phone dunno why cant open

after tat i dunno how i go home lol ..

2009-01-18T01:14:00.000-08:00

lalalas
so long never post liao -.-
hahas my birthday coming soon le =DD
5 feb <33333
today stay at home whole day using com =.=
so fucking sianz
&& ii kenna hsa again
because tis year sec 1 got alot of su kia ..
fcuk them la
nbccb

2009-01-08T00:18:00.000-08:00

just back home
&&
i hate my class lo
is lyk no fiends
D=
i hate it
so lonely
i gonna give everything now
i really dun wish to fall in love again anymore
the feeling is lyk wad the fcuk la

2008-12-27T01:55:00.000-08:00

lalas so sianz
so back to here blogging =DD
26 dec
actually is slping de
but flona & amanda keep msg me ask me go out
den no choice wake up bath & prepare & go out
den reach dere i cry =.=
hais
aiya no mood blog le

2008-12-23T14:20:00.000-08:00

just wake up
now using com alwhile
den jiu go prepare
ok let updat-e about ytd
i went amk find thalia & jiayin
den jiu go timezone find sister & my mei =D
den go funland slack slack
wait for my jie
den sister they all go le
den i and jie go northpoint mac wait for xiaox =DDD
den he reach le
we chat chat lo
den andy they all also come
den saw angelia
long time no see her le lo
take her number =D
as she change her number le
den slackk until ard 1plus
cab hom-e =D

i think

i had fall in love

with you

but i just deny my feeling

cos starting i tot is just crush

but i think now is not le

as i dunno why i suddenly

dun have feeling for Terence

& finally give up him le

1year & 1month love TLMH

&because of you i give up him.

but i know ur heart is with

another gal

but nvm

as it my fault to fall in love with u.

iloveyo-u

silentlov-e & it hurt D=

2008-12-16T04:03:00.000-08:00

hahas
so sianz
still watching the show
&&
i had decide to close down my private blog
as i don nid at all
and i gonna give up you

TLMH

u dun deserve my love for you

last time how u treat me i will just it

as rubbish and throw away

u are not going to be in my heart anymore

i dun nid and i know u also dun nid me

so wad the point rite ?

i will not going to rmb you anymore

byee my lov-e

so now i going to change my life=D

just because of tis is worthy

i wan meet up wif LimLing Darlin && flona XinganJie

=DD

they are the one who make my life happy

sisters mit up soon !!

i wan go shoppinggg!

2008-12-15T23:53:00.000-08:00

Long time no post le
hahas
now wait for the show to loads finish
hais
so slow de lo
anyway the 命中注定我爱你 is sooooo
niceeeeeeeeee
=DDD
i lyk show la ...
hai so sianz
tis few day nth to do ...
haiya i wan go watch my show le
byesbyes=D

2008-12-10T23:52:00.000-08:00

just back home not long =D
so sianz today limling wake me up at 1plus
((:
den prepared all tis 2pm den hao le
den go down mit limling <33
she so cute la =D
den jiu smoke (:
den actually wan take cab de
but limling said waste money lo
den jiu take bus to counselling
wen in bus 812 saw terence and kel ...
den also saw wenzhen de mummy ...
so sianz lo the counselling...
after tat cabbed to funland
play rock-fever =D
after tat go northpoint on th way saw
wilfred and jeremy lol
the wilfred saw me jiu said 'WOBUGONG'
den jeremy said 'BAGAY'
lame la.......
den reach timezone alwhile nia go smoke agn...
after tat go back timezone find jeremy go smoke again...
den so sianz jiu go foodcourt slack.....
after tat go funland play rock-fever again =.=
rock-fever jiu go library =D
surprise rite i will go library ...
hahas den go back funland rock-fever again and limling go home le ..
den tis time round andy,jareld and forgot who liao keep disiao me
=.=
(skip'')
finally flona reach liao den we go mac eat ..
hahas she treat me eat ...
den pei her go posb dere deposit money
den i take bus go home
ok la end here le =D

2008-12-05T19:20:00.000-08:00

HELLo

HAPPY birthday to alicia :D

just back home not long ago .
just went to mit flona at funland
and i was late =x
sorry (:
den she pass me the top-up card tat she buy for me
Thank uhs
after that we go buy cigg
den the go the usual place smoke..
after tat go 212 slack slack smoke smoke
den ard 7pm send her home
she give me money money take cab back
hahas so good hor ??
den now at here blogging =D

2008-12-05T05:36:00.000-08:00

Just create finish my private blog & i love it aloads :D
www.fuckthlov-e.blogspot.com
if wan link tag on my tis blog and i will invite u and link u
:D

2008-11-22T17:17:00.000-08:00

my blog gona rot le

walaoooo
today is sat but why ?
wenzhen never contact me ?
why she haven come out ?
....
nvm
anyway let start from
17 nov
wake up around 11plus
den prepare everything
take money from my mommy
pack my thing
den go funland mit botak & flona
after tat go flona house prepare thing for chalet ...
hahas 4day 3 nitez gonna enjoyed it..

*skip , skip some parts

den they went down take 1 carton menthol de cigg..
but i never stay at flona hse help her mother cut the jellies
lols XD

**skip skip **

finally reach the chalet first thing we all do is book the bed ..
lol
after i botak and flona go down stair smoke due to her mother and her brother at chalet
and left jinlian at dere..
then smoke finish botak said wan eat ice-cream =.=
den walk until super far far until my leg gona break
and my body is weak..
because i sick mahhs no choice..
den at dere they two play pool i at dere stare ...
after wilfred and kaixuan reach le...
den bbq tym
so jinlian flona kaixuan botak wilfred and me went down start the fire..
lol
den jinlian and flona wan smoke but cant at the bbq pit dere smoke as if her mother look down sure saw de
so they walk until very far ...
den left me alone wif those guy
=.=
they keep disiao me lo...
take chacoal put on my face ...
after tat so boring den kaixuan go find flona they all.
den botak and wilfred at smoke..
the wilfred keep blow at me
=.='
after tat flona relative come den we all go upstair
diao all never help ...
**skip skip
den andy ang , andy tan and joeson came
den sang happy birthday song for flona
after tat flona de parent all go home
finally
PARTY TYM !
all take 1sticks smoke ..
after i pei jinlian and andy ang go out chat chat..
den xiao x and his frenz came alwhile jiu go le ..
after tat andy ang also off to tamp to find his stead..
den jinlian wilfred andy tan and me was at the room..
wan slp also cant they keep disiao me while jinlian play psp
PSP freak lo..
aiya
****SKIP SKIP
zhenghui they all came......
den henry also came wif one bottle martell
shiok sial
den they drink drink
den i also wan drink but jinlian and wilfred dun let due to my fever cus de
den jinlian go out den i quickly take the bottle pour inthe end
wilfred go take it
walao...
nvm...at dere gong dai gong cb doing nothing
after tat all go slp liao
den i also den slp beside
wilfred...
diaoooooooo
18 nov
*skip forgot le...
nitz tym andy ling they all came
and i was high fever
damn jialat la..
they almost call ambulance
=.=
den all the slp lo
19nov
aiya forgot........ but they playing mahjong wholenite
20nov
check out le..
all go ehub eat breakfast
den jinlian go off first den i and flona and kaixuan
go play ddr..
after tat jiu go back yishun funland play rock fever ..
den go home change den down to funland again..
21 nov
stay at home
today dunno

2008-11-10T05:56:00.000-08:00

我可以忍受
我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受作了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔

爱着你
是我改不了也不愿改的习惯
要放开哪有那么简单
了解你
是我说不出也不承认的悲哀
包容你
是我体谅的爱别当作应该

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受作了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔

爱着你
是我改不了也不愿改的习惯
要放开哪有那么简单
了解你
是我说不出也不承认的悲哀
包容你
是我体谅的爱别当作应该

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受作了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔

No.No.No
不要说对不起
原来你要的不是我
不要说谢谢你
什么你永远在我心中
can u tell me why
这样的我你也曾爱过
不是吗

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受作了那么多
是她拥有我该得到的温柔
是她拥有我没看过的笑容

2008-11-06T11:55:00.000-08:00

终于了解
在你离开的那一天
我抽了第一根香烟
看着烟圈飞上天
模糊指尖
我依然看得见
我们之间有过欢乐的画面
还有贴在房间里的照片
我想这次分开让我获益不浅
我终于了解
我爱你不只在刹那之间
你的好我现在才发现
才知道是不可以欠缺
我爱你再一举摔了吧就忘见
承诺已不只是永远
我的心像是破碎的镜片
使我的不知觉
让我对你忽略我真得很想和你走到终点
我爱你不只在刹那之间
你的好我现在才发现
才知道是不可以欠缺
我爱你再一举摔了吧就忘见
承诺已不只是永远
我的心像是破碎的镜片
回不到从前
没有了知觉

2008-10-22T08:25:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
now in school!!!
sianz sianz
ytd i cut hair le ..
okok la
:DD

Boy i miss you real fucking loads..

2008-10-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

heyhey anybody know my EOY marks ????
:(((
cos tis whole week never go sch
and tml is promotion day if i not wrong
hais
confirm retain de lo
nvm nxt year try harder yea ?
i dun think so bahhs
maybe quit sch ?
better is promote to NT can liao
the best cos i really cant cope at NA le
wat ever i dun give a damn anymore...

boy i miss you damn fucking loads.

2008-10-09T16:06:00.000-07:00

Exam finally finish le
anyway 2 more days to ice skating
:DD

TLMH i missing you;
you know ?
):

}Continued@11.07Pm

just back AMK & Bishan wif my jiejie ^^

Shopping time :DD

in the mean time

did not realise you will actually msg me saying tat you bored !

glad tat you still actually rmb me (:

ok good nitex (:

2008-10-06T20:36:00.000-07:00

Back to post again :DD
today having history & literature
but sad to said
my history got the OAS but just nice no pencil :((
so i use blue pen
but i know confirm fail de
haiis

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very , very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

boy i still waiting for you to be back to me one day

2008-10-06T01:17:00.000-07:00

everything may not be perfect
but deep in my heart
you just wonderful & perfect guy.
as you are the only one
that can let me feel warmth
nobody had the power to do
unless is you.
but in my heart
i really dun mind being hurt
by you again and again.

everybody good nite(:

2008-10-05T13:25:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

today sunday le
tml exam start again =.=
it is lyk WTH la
and sat faster come i wan iceskating

I'm just another girl to you;

but you're everything to me.

i will never give up on you;

even if i need to go thought crying

every minutes & seconds

2008-10-04T16:24:00.000-07:00

EH!

so sianzzzz
i wan smoke
maybe ltr going down buy cigg bahhs
anyway my 2nd hsa letter
finally arrived to my hse
:DD
LOLS!

i still miss you lyk the way i am

i still love you lyk the way i are

i still need you lyk the way i must

nothing is gonna change my love for you

x33333s

2008-10-04T11:21:00.000-07:00

Hello

delete all my post le
:DD

i may not get to see as you often as i like.
i may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.
but deep in my heart i truly love ,
you're the one that i love,
and i can't let you go .

if i said i love you;

can i keep you forever ?